The East and the West Shouldn’t Meet

Today's Scripture:
Matt. 6:14-15, Eph. 4:32

Today's Prayer: Lord, I do so many stupid things! I'm selfish...I've gossiped...I've broken promises...I've lied. And look how I treat others when they do the same to me! I'm not proud of my record, but Your mercy encourages me to try again….try again to be kind, tender-hearted, and forgiving.

I don't hold grudges. This really isn't an issue for me. I don't know why. It is more than likely the grace of God entirely. But there is one person who for some reason, I fail to forgive…my wife. I love her. I love her deeply. I would do anything for her. But often when I am weak or upset, the past comes out. It just blurts out like vomit. And it is hurtful. It hurts my wife. It pushes me away from God. It is just a horrible thing. And the worst part is…if she would so choose…my wife could pound me with the mistakes of my past. I am far worse then she is and have made much bigger transgressions against her. I don't want to be the man forgiven an unpayable debt only to not forgive the one I love the most. Lord, please separate these thoughts from my mind as far as the east is from the west.